I’ve mentioned before that I am a part of the Assisting Team at Firefly Yoga and I just love it. Love love love! It was my favorite weekend during Yoga Teacher Training (as physically exhausting as that was) and I enjoy being part of a person’s practice in a unique way. I still look at it as teaching and being in the practice, just using my hands and connecting with other yogis. I just completed the Baptiste Assisting Course at Lyon’s Den in NYC and it kicked my ass hard but I loved every minute of it.Read More
It’s true what they say about Yoga Teacher Training - it is life changing. I completed my 200 HR training this past weekend and I have been floating on air ever since. This training broke me down. I have ugly cried, said things out loud I never thought I would say, really dove into the parts of me that needed to be addressed that I’ve avoided, pushed my body to the limit, and acted like a complete fool and loved it.
You’d think, what does this have to do with teaching yoga? For me, it’s helped me let go of insecurities and worries I had about teaching and once you drop that baggage, it just makes you feel lighter and freer to just be yourself and have fun.
We all got to teach a Community Class Saturday morning and I had so much fun. I woke up that morning feeling so calm and at ease. I was part of the first group to teach in the morning and afterward someone said “I bet you’re relieved to get that over with!” and honestly, I wasn’t really nervous to begin with to feel any kind of relief. I came to realize in the last week that THIS IS WHAT YOU’VE BEEN WANTING TO DO!! Why the hell do need to be nervous???
I love Yoga! And I’ve made it clear that I want to share that love with others and share that empowering feeling it’s given me. Why be timid, shy, or second guess about it? This is who I am so just put it out there! I was so relaxed. I got some great feedback from my teachers and fellow trainees that’s only going to help my teaching even more. I can’t wait to teach again.
I’m going to continue learning and training. I signed up for a Baptiste Assisting Course next month so I get more hands-on assisting training. I really like assisting and would be happy spending an entire class just assisting people. The yoga studio has a Mentorship program I’m going to apply for and I’m even considering their 300 Hour Teacher Training.
I’m also going to ask around about getting on substitute lists for different studios. The truth is I would love to just teach at one place (preferably where I trained), even if it’s just one class a week but I don’t want to limit myself in case that’s not in the cards. I don’t plan on leaving my other jobs any time soon so getting as many teaching gigs as possible is not a priority. When I was younger, I used to want to be one of those yoga teachers who taught several classes a day at different studios and just being so cool. Now I just get tired thinking about it LOL!
Overall this has been an amazing experience and the women I trained with have been A-W-E-S-O-M-E! I am so glad to have them all in my life now and they have taught me so much. I truly believe that it was meant to be that the nine of us came together at this time to go on this journey. I can’t wait to see where we all go from here.
Last month I started Yoga Teacher Training and so far it has been way more fulfilling than I thought it would be. I'm with an amazing group of women and we all just meshed right away. Maybe it's a reflection of the yoga studio and the community it has developed which has been very welcoming and accepting and it just spills into the teaching program? Maybe it has to with learning more about Baptiste Yoga, which is more than just a sequence of asana (yoga poses) but also meditation and self-inquiry.
"Self-Inquiry" is probably the most difficult of the three to work on because who really wants to look at themselves and go deep into their fears and what's holding them back? C'MON LET'S DO SOME YOGA!!! But doing this is helping all of us connect in a way that is more than just someone I take yoga classes with, and it's awesome. It's hard, but awesome.
It is all starting to make sense. I've already broken down and shared more about myself than I'm comfortable with but sometimes you need to tear down the old in order to build up stronger, better, and new. I'm not finished, I'm sure there's more that's gonna come out, more tears, more tissues, but I feel like I am at a very critical point that will determine how I will choose to live the rest of my life. It's a serious head and heart examination that years of therapy probably couldn't tap into.
Some people practice yoga strictly for the exercise. They have no interest in meditation, sanskrit, bandhas, 8 Limbs of Yoga, anything that has to do with mindfulness, spiritually, and looking within. And that's okay! If there's one thing I don't like is forcing something on someone who is not interested or ready to be receptive to it. There were a lot of things I didn't want to look at for years but the time wasn't right until now.
On the flip side, when people come to yoga for more than just to stretch - like seeking peace, stress relief, an "escape" from the bullshit they're dealing with - that's heavy! And as a teacher, you are a part of helping them find whatever it is that they are looking for. I don't want to take that lightly. Teaching yoga is more than just walking around, calling out yoga poses and making adjustments here and there. You are empowering, uplifting, inspiring, and encouraging others which is pretty much why I want to teach yoga. I'm not sure if I can do this any other way but through yoga.